Mirror, Mirror

You know that feeling when you are having an amazing day?! 

You feel on top of the world. As you mentally go through the checklist of what you’ve accomplished, you’re left glowing. Now, you probably aren’t going around telling other people how awesome you are, but you sure as heck are feelin’ it! You’re unstoppable! There’s no way everyone else is going around doing what you just did…

And you feel this in your bones.

Then you have those days, that are the polar opposite. A lot of my lowest days used to come right after my high ones – making it suck all the more. Those days your inner voice might be just as loud in a different way, telling you all the ‘I told you so’s…’

I told you you weren’t good enough. I told you you weren’t smart enough. I knew you couldn’t do it…

And you feel this in your bones.

I was struck by a thought the last time I went through this high-low cycle. Both these stories can’t be true. It’s impossible for me to be both totally incapable and totally capable. So, I asked myself, ‘which one is it’? 

Which story do I believe?

Our brains are so sneaky! Honestly, I’m amazed at how much clarity this brought me (how did I not realize this before!!). As the icky feelings slipped away, I had this peaceful feeling come over me. A knowing that they won’t be returning. Or, at least they will be quieter, softer, and easily dismissed.  

I’m so grateful for this new awareness. I couldn’t wait to share it with you. 

You can’t have it both ways. Which story do you believe?

You get to choose.